It’s always positive, so I miss those emotions and acting is a great way to revisit them. I’m mostly peaceful - sometimes I’m happy, sometimes I’m loving it. But in real life, I’m not conflicted at all. If I’m paying attention and I observe, I get to see the conflicts and that gives me enough material to portray a particular character. Why do you veer towards such conflicted roles? In most of your films, you have played complex characters. I also believe all of us are terribly similar but remarkably unique at the same time. I pay attention and my intention is right but it’s just my liking, nothing else. It never means that I don’t take it seriously. I’m grateful for that because I have always loved performing. I have plenty of things I like doing and acting happens to be one of them. If you work hard, you will be hired to do just that all your life. Is it a conscious move on your part to not fit in? It’s necessary to see where we are heading in terms of career and life, but if you are successful and you don’t have the time to enjoy the benefits of being so, then what’s the point? That’s also partly true because I’m selling my film. We start conversations with assumptions that we are talking to an actor. (Cuts in) I don’t define myself with norms at all. You aren’t really out there as much as your peers… You don’t conform to the industry prototype for actors. If I’m joyful, I can make people feel that way. I have plenty of things that I like already, so I allot my time to them in order to be happy. Thankfully, I have managed to be at a place where I decide for myself. I’m in the right space because I love to live in the present and do what I like to do without harming anyone else. You seem to be in a different space in life right now.
In a candid chat, Sushant reflects about his personal and professional choices. We all need to stop overthinking about things and just concentrate and put in our energies on the next thing that interests us.” While the Gen-Y star has as many as four films lined up this year with Sonchiriya being the first release, he doesn’t want to be called just ‘an actor’. He tells us, “There’s so much to do and you have one life. However, when we caught up with the 33-year-old recently, we noticed that now he is unfazed by the fate of his movies. When we had met him after Raabta’s (2017) release, he was upset as the reincarnation romance hadn’t lived up to expectations. Earlier, Sushant Singh Rajput would be perturbed about the success and failure of his movies.